I, Jack Antony, take you, Julian Mark, to be my lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part. The wedding vow kept revolving in Julian’s mind and the blank ring finger made her go back to every moment that she had shared with her husband. Her wedding which started with so much love and several promises lasted only for 4 years. But the wedding ring embraced her finger for the last 15 years. Glowing and sparkling reminding her of the happiest times with Jack and then the torment of separation. Though a mutual divorce but the agony of Julian never ceased, she started her new independent life but vivid memories always relapsed like the waves coming back to the shore.
With a knock on the door, she was brought back to the present. Wiping the tears, she moved towards the door.
“Hey Julian, what happened??…you look all red with swelled up eyes.”
“Yeah, it's just that I lost my wedding ring, Jenny”.
“Oh come on Julian. That ring is better off from your beautiful finger. Why you want to carry the burden of a broken marriage.” I don't know what kind of emotion it was building inside me. But I could have killed Jenny for using such words but unfortunately I couldn't, after all she was my only sister. She always hated Jack saying, that “this man is selfish”..... But was he?
No he was not. Speaking for self can never be selfish. Thoughts were pooling in her head. Trying to ignore them she asked Jenny to help her find the ring....
Halfheartedly Jenny started searching.
Whole day went off…still the ring was not found. Sitting on the couch ,she closed her eyes ,letting teardrops to flow, silence of the empty house accompanying her in the sorrow. She thought to self…realizing the fact ,that although she was weeping for the ring but her heart was actually moaning for the lost love....Her Husband..... Grief was for the precious loss of the only true love of her life and the guilt of gone years assisted .
It took Julian long 15 years to realise the greatest loss of her life...... All these years she was making herself live in a false belief of a happy go lucky, independent, contented life whereas in reality her soul never moved away neither from the marriage nor from Jack. she was still there… Stuck somewhere in the middle of love, ego and hatred. But now, past years were difficult to be relived again.
Let no ego destroy the beauty of your relations.
“You can never move on from the one who is in the safest and deepest corner of your heart. You carry them along all your life”
Like Julian, many of you might have a lost love, an abandoned relation but whenever you take a trip down the memory lane ,the journey you had with them will always be remembered.